Smoking kills...

...but the world sucks anyway so go for it. Ever have one of those days where you wake up and the world just seems off slightly? Not one of those days where you know everything's about to go wrong but where it seems everything already has. As though while you were sleeping someone took the world and just twisted it slightly, or moved you to some parallel dimension where things just aren't quite right. I dunno, maybe I'm just oversensitive about these things. Today just feels that way.

Anyway, moving on from today's depression. The other night some people said that I was more intelligent than them. I don't agee with this. Intelligence is a product of careful, logical reasoning. I'm crap at that. The reason they said it was because of my understanding of game rules. Personally I don't think that has anything to do with intelligence, more to do with pattern recognition and an understanding of systems.

All of you lucky people are going to get an insight into my childhood now. Have fun.

I used my first computer when I was three or four, and I've been hooked ever since. We never had a television and never really needed one. I was usually too absorbed in books or the computer to bother with wasting my time on watching tv. I think this is probably when I started to get my understanding of systems. I can understand machines, computers, whatever you care to name so long as it has sensible rules governing it.

People seemed harder at first, and it was only much later that I learned how similar they are. Push the right buttons and you can always get the results you want. Anyway, that's another story.

My main point here is that its not a matter of intelligence, I just have an innate, trained understanding of systems. I don't reason things out, ever, I just follow intuition. Most of the time it turns out to be the right intuition, but that's not the point.